good to forget :)

tonight has been good :) its been good to get fucked up enough to forget my hate... fucked up enough to forget the reasons as to why my appearance.... I say appearance in terms of physical and inner "beauty".... repulses me

I've been happy with who i am tonight.. well last night now.. it was a reminder of uni and how i have some amazing friends who I can have some amazing conversations with or just prat around like a 5 year old high on sugar

the emo self pity of last night feels like a freaking joke... but then someone has jokingly said i have bi-polar tendencies :P